Confusion. Some days more, some days less. It’s weird. Literally. Life is weird. Sometimes in the most ironic way.
But I do believe in fate. In things happening for a reason in order for us to learn and grow. To teach us something. Both the good and the bad. So, sometimes life takes us places we never expected. Surprise, surprise!
To be very clear, I’ve always been a person with a pretty concrete image of what I want my life to look like. Not just a plan a, but also b and just in case c. I never really had a thing for detours. Not a bit. I am usually very determined with what I am doing. So, actually plan a was the way to go. Always. That’s me. And that was by all means not always easy. But somehow it worked out quite well for the most part of my life. Until it hit me..
And it hit pretty hard. I fell quit a bit. Life doesn’t always choose the same way as we want it to. So, here we are somewhere between having a plan, life’s fate and some weird things happening along the way.
I always felt as if I know what I was doing. Very mature. School, studies, work. As it should be. During my studies I had this idea that as soon as you graduate you will jump right into a job ladder, work hard and have a good life. Little did I know.. ironically right before leaving the last semester of university behind I had to deal with quite some personal things. A broken heart, my mother being in hospital and the ups and downs of relationships. There I was. Lost.
That 21 year old girl that always had the vision of how life was supposed to be. Of how things had to be. It was freaking hard and it hurt. A lot. But somehow it brought me to the place I am today. Made me stronger and taught me a lot about life in general. And yes, this might sound very cliche and cheesy. But what shall I say. It’s true.
So, again. Things do happen for a reason. Life is a process. Life includes change. And change means life. It means growth and becoming the person you are today. The future self. And I guess I am quoting Cheryl Strayed at some point here.. But every decision. Every action. Everything you do leads to something.
So, what is the lesson learned here? Life doesn’t follow a script. It’s not a bad thing to have a vision and goals. It’s inevitable. But sometimes we have to leave the path we always thought was the right one for us. It might open doors we never expected existed. If you have asked me three years ago of how my life would look like today.. Guess I wouldn’t have talked about being a flight attendant and traveling the world and just being where I am today.
girl on a journey 